Why Am I So Disturbed When Others Don’t Believe With Me?

One of the things that I’ve been doing while I have been avoiding writing here is an eCourse called Into the Dark Night, a creative spiritual course around wrestling with guilt, doubt and fear and to just generally thrash around with a personal understanding of God and spirituality.

This is like dancing around on the edge of a razor blade territory for me, and I’ve been thinking about why that is…

I think Mandy Steward may have put it into words for me with this prompt…

I know what I believe.  It makes me feel comforted.  So why am I disturbed when others don't believe with me? #iamthrashing

Image by Mandy Steward

I think this is a common struggle, irregardless of what exactly you believe. We’re an insecure people who want to surround ourselves with others who see things the way we do, and feel threatened when someone poses an alternate point of view because it calls into question all of those things that we hold dear… As if our very identity is being threatened if everyone around us doesn’t believe as we do.

I keep my mouth shut on a lot of subjects that I’d rather just talk about because I don’t want to be perceived as threatening because my thoughts on the matter deviate from the perceived norm. I don’t like to rock the boat and piss people off. I’m more of a let’s hold hands and be besties forever sort of person.

But… I’m slowly coming to the realization that I cannot control how I’m perceived, the best I can do is be myself and hope for the best. That’s the best anyone can hope for, really.