I’ve never been one of those people who makes goals. That whole business about identifying what you want in the future and then following through on the work to get there? Yeah, that stuff scares the living beejesus out of me.
I have spent the vast majority of my life falling randomly into job opportunities and I never really had much of a plan for what I wanted to do in life. Not that this is necessarily a bad thing… I’ve had the opportunity to work on a lot of different projects with some pretty amazing people.
Where I am is not where I planned to be, but I also didn’t particularly plan to be anywhere to get here.
And my current situation is a place that I’m not particularly content with, it’s certainly livable for the moment but it’s not what I want to be doing forever.
There are things that I would like to be doing, but for those things to be viable options of things to do… there are things that have to happen first.
Goals, if you were.
You know, those things that I like to avoid making at all costs.
At the root of it’s the fear of failure.
As lousy as this logic is… if I never define a goal, I never have to be disappointed if I don’t achieve it. I never have to be embarrassed if I didn’t achieve it. I never have to be accountable if I didn’t achieve it.
That’s a problem because by not making any short term goals, I have a tendency to not actually do much of anything towards the big picture dreams that I seem to come up with.
Which means in the big picture, I’m failing because I’m not doing anything.
So, I need to do that which scares me.
- Take one class yoga class by the end of the month.
- Cook meals at least three times a week.
- Prepare for a burlesque show on March 16th.
- Turn the heel on the sock I’ve been working on.
- Write two to three blog posts a week.
- Make some needed adjustments to the blog’s theme.
- Prepare to add a button exchange / sponsors for April.
- Update nikkiana.com and redesign it.
- Investigate modx.